kelly_channingx

I feel so suffocated
the walls are closing in
the light is going dark
anger, depression
i can't breath
gasping for air
you reach out
give me your hand
and it's perfect
just for that moment
everything's right
but then you take your hand away
you think i can stand on my own
i could never stand on both legs
i'm too weak
my knees ache
my heart aches
my head aches
my lungs ache
and i'm tired
yes i'm tired
"i start out again with a smile on my face, to hide the emptiness and find myself a friend."
Phil Ochs
he was tired too
and he suffocated
the people who knew suffocated him
he loved as i loved
but he was blind
he though love would prevail in the end
and in the short days or maybe even weeks before he hung himself he realized love would never work
and he would never win
but i know better
love is fake
just like you
and your kindness
well you're just a fair-weather friend
coming to me when you want something
and i want to hate you
i really do
and i'm tired of hating you
because like love, hate can't win either
but you feed me with false hope
and quench my thirst with un-realistic dreams
I never wanted this
i just wanted happiness
and i think i've found it
it comes in the form of a man
but he couldn't be bothered because i'm too young
too young for love he thinks
three years older than me
but i'm smarter
i know there's no point
i want him all the same
he seems sweet
and genuine most of all
moral of the story is i'm tired
and i'm ready to sleep...